I should know better, but I’m a 25 year old male, used to be very fat thanks to a broken pituitary gland. After being on growth hormone injections until I was 18, I obviously stretched out quite well and received so many compliments about my new, slimmer frame. For the first time in my life I was called "handsome" or "attractive."
Now, it has started to get out of hand. I left home at the age of 18, and lived a normal life up until about 2 years ago, where I realised I had gained a little weight since my initial (huge) weight shift. Now I KNOW this is normal, but I started dieting. I think perhaps I associate weight loss in general, with attractiveness/compliments thanks to my previous situation. But in the past 6 months, I have found myself in a bad situation.
I am 5’7.5" (171.5cm) tall, 105lb, and about 26-27" waist. But I am now doing 1000 crunches a day, up to 500 push ups a day, regiment every meal to the point I use digital scales for vegetables (I actually weigh CUCUMBER). I no longer consume any more than 1200-1400 calories maximum, per day, and if I’m having alcohol, I factor that in too (so if I have three cans of lager, I allow myself a meagre 700 calories worth of food that day, say).
I cannot break free, I’ve been to the doctor who says my testosterone is rock bottom, I’m sleeping terribly, and I’m just so fatigued I can hardly walk to the shops. I weigh myself each morning, and if I see the scale go from 104.6lb to 104.8lb in a day, I will occasionally ‘punish’ by doing extra exercise or eat a little less.
Thank you in advance for any advice you can give; I am too embarrassed to speak to my closest and most-loved… they would be so confused as to why I’m this way, but to be honest, I don’t even have a reason myself…
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